WELL.....HERE'S THE NEWS 15 DPO

Well, the evil witch has made her appearance guys. Im not pregnant, she came two days early this month. BOOOOO!!! I was super upset and discouraged because I seriously feel like I may not be able to have kids! BUT! IM BETTER!!! So after I spoke to my mom and told her how I was feeling she really made me feel a lot better and I know that it will happen, and it is all in time =)
I am going to see my doctor and have them check out my sickness and see if I should be on any medications to make this easier. So yes we are taking a TTC break BUT we will continue to update on our changes and especially on what the doctors say. So we hope to keep our followers, and supporters because you guys truly make this that much easier on both of us. Daddy and I are hurt, but we going to make the best out of our summer just loving each other and making it a super memorable one. We are still planning our wedding and it is very exciting. We are okay because we have one another to lean on. God knows what he's doing and I have full faith in him. =)

Thank You Everyone!

-NENA

Cycle Day 23: 11 DPO

Hey everyone. Yesterday I was feeling a little crampy when I woke up and my boobs are seriously getting worse. I've also been slightly nauseous at times, just kind of feeling my food come back up. Aside from that...Oh and tired...but that is about it. I forgot to mention I've cried the last three days lol. Anyway, so me and daddy decided why not take a test today. Now its Friday and my period isn't due until Wednesday, so I am testing kind of early, but hey. I am kind of confused considering my period usually comes 14 dpo which would be Monday, and Wednesday is 16 dpo. But I also ovulated early and all that mess. So Idk! Well I took a clearblue digital and it said "Not Pregnant" -.- it could be because its still early, or it could be just that I'm not pregnant. Idk! I will wait now to see if my period shows up. I am kind of bummed but at the same time it is all in Gods hands and he knows what he's doing.
I have thought about it though, and if this cycle doesn't work I think we should hold off for another month. Just because its stressful and the anxiety that comes with TTC is serious. Also it would give me the chance to get checked up with my doctor and discuss my Endometriosis. Well everyone ttyl.
Baby Dust!

-NENA

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Cycle Day 21: 9 DPO

Hey everyone! Well, yesterday was a long day! It was my first day off from work, and I spent the day catering to Daddy, which I love doing! Made her what she asked for dinner, rubbed her down, let her relax and watch tv. It was just about her. We fell asleep for 3 hours and when I woke up I felt like I was going to PUKE!! We woke up around 8pm, and I was back to sleep at 10pm until 7am this morning, and again, felt like I was going to PUKE! Today was HOT AS HELL!!! We took a trip to the beach with family, than came home and I cooked dinner, now daddy is working =(
All day my boobs have been KILLING me!!!! My nipples hurt so BAD!! Also, I been nauseous throughout the day, and it is driving me CRAZY! It's like my food keeps coming up and just never settles! I cannot take it! I am still short of breath, and I had a headache today but I think it was from my ponytail, not really relating it to any symptoms. Still super duper bloated and gassy, that just refuses to STOP! LOL! Hey if it leads to a baby then I'll take it ALL! ;-) Well that's all for now!

Baby Dust!

-NENA

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VLOG 9 2 WEEK WAIT

Cycle Day 20: 8 DPO

Hey guys! Sorry about not updating last night but I was DRAINED!!! I came home from work and cooked dinner and was beyond exhausted after my shower! Well where to start....yesterday I woke up gassy again, and didn't really have too much nausea, but I did end up really fatigued around 3pm at work. I was sitting down with a patient and out of nowhere I started to feel super winded. It could just be me being tired for working long hours four days in a row, or a symptom. Also, I haven't had a bowel movement since Sunday, and today is Tuesday. That isn't really normal for me to skip a day, and when I did go on Sunday...it took some effort, which also never happens. I know I know TMI!! LOL!! TOO BAD!! But I ate some cereal in hopes to get things going because I am lactose intolerant. My breast are tender to the touch. When I take off my bra they feel super heavy. >.< Daddy said she noticed I had sensitive smell a few days ago, which I did not pick up on, and I still really can't say I do or don't. Lol...I am still bloated more than I was. My stomach is kind of hard also, but maybe because of not using the bathroom over 36hrs. I still have a lot of Cervical Mucus, and that is definitely new for me. After Ovulation I have some CM but not in the amounts I've had in the past two days.
My anxiety is starting to kick in but not too bad considering I am already 8 DPO. Last month I think I was testing already at this time Lol. OH! Also, I've been having some twinges of pain here and there on my ovaries as well as what seems like a stomach ache. But it could be anything. I mean I am truly hoping that it worked out this time, and we will have a healthy lil baby in March. But still too early to test. Just keep us in your prayers!

Baby Dust!

-NENA

Cycle Day 18: 6 DPO

Hey everyone! So I'm back and ofcourse Daddy is working. I just got off work and I am EXHAUSTED! Daddy had a Drag King Show she was hired to do, so we didn't get home until after two. And then she cut me some cantaloupe and papaya so we didn't actually sleep until three. Lol! Anyways! Update on how I feel???! Well...I'm still bloated, and the acne on my chin is getting serious! I never break out only when my period is about a day away and it one pimple, not 3-4!! Also, a lot of CM (Cervical Mucus) today! I know I know TMI but hey. My breast feel heavy, and when touched they are super sensitive. I'm still having some gas but not as bad as yesterday. I mean everything sounds promising but we still can't jump to conclusions you know. We have another 10 days to wait before I test or my period comes. Well guys this one is short because I'm drained and want to sleep! Lol! Love ya!!
Baby Dust

-NENA

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Cycle Day 17: SYMPTOMS?!

Hey everyone!! So sorry for not updating last night. Daddy and I had a hectic day!! We wanted to basically just make the day just about us so we did just tht. She took me out to dinner at 99 Restaurant, and it was delicious!! Then I dragged her to "The 99" which is basically based on the 99 teens that die everyday due to addiction, drinking and driving, suicide, violence, etc. Its a huge tent divided into different rooms and each room is a different type of teen death and it was super graphic and intense. One room that scared the hell out of me was HELL! Yes they had a room disguised as HELL!! It was exactly what daddy and I pictured. Then the next room showed a scene from Passion of the Christ and had an actor act the Crucifixion out after. It ended with a short film about a man sacrificing his little sons life to save a train of people full of sins. It broke my heart to watch. But it was an outlook on what God did for us. We then got to meet with someone and talk about our experience and say a prayer. It was super inspiring!
Ok enough of that! So yesterday I spend a lot of the day feeling nauseas. I took it as aftermath of having eaten a poptart with my lunch around 12. But it was throughout my day soooooo Idk. I was also bloated as HELL and still am! I've had gas since yesterday which is painful! I mean can these be symptoms?! Yes of course but I do not want to get ahead of myself. Daddy and I haven't been too caught up with things this time. Huts yesterday I almost ordered and alcoholic beverage because we really have forgot about it. It's easier to deal with the anxiety that way. Well im at work right now so I gotta go. I'll post up pictures tonite of how bloated I am, and our tickets from "The 99".
Baby Dust!

-NENA

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Cycle Day 15: 3 DPO

So our day was very nice. Aside from me being bloated anti having gas for the past two days lol. TMI! We spent the day together watching movies and cuddling. Daddy really is my best friend. It's still too early to think of anything as possible SYMPTOMS and this time around I am actually really relaxed during the 2ww. Maybe I will get more anxious as it gets closer to finding out, but as of today we are both relatively calm. Which is really good because last month we were both a wreck. I mean I know we are both scared of being disappointed but we feel very optimistic. I pray every nite and hope that we are blessed.
So wedding talk... My sister who is also my maid of honor has really been on top of things. She's looking at venues and dresses, it keeps me more relaxed as well. We are going to go see some dresses next week so that should be fun. I have a very solid idea of what I want so it should go smoothly.
Another thing me and daddy discussed today is how long we should wait until we start house hunting. Our apartment is a two bedroom but is pretty small, so a toddler wouldn't really have space to run around even though we have space outside. I'm thinking after I pay off my car is best because I wouldn't want to have a car payment and mortgage....I would not feel secure enough. However we are going to keep an eye on the market and I think between now and then we will have a solid idea of what we are looking for and where is best.
Well its past my bedtime now and I work the next 4 days straight 7a-7p so ill post again tomorrow. Goodnight everyone!
Baby Dust!
-NENA

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Cycle Day 14: Start Our 2WW

So it has officially begun... the TERRIBLE, ANNOYING, ANXIOUS, EVIL 2 WEEK WAIT!!!! Last month I was going freaking KRAZY!! I felt so many symptoms but I guess I got ahead of myself. So this month we only have one pregnancy test left and I refuse to take it until my period is due June 27. SHE BETTER NOT COME!!! EVIL HOME-WRECKER!! Guys I am terrified of being disappointed again, last months really broke my heart. But I feel too secure this month, it almost feels too good to be true you know?! I hope that we do get pregnant and have a very AMAZING AND HEALTHY PREGNANCY and a very HAPPY AND HEALTHY BABY!! AHHHHH!!!! Everyone has been great on YouTube and on Facebook, and for those of you who follow our Blog! All the INCREDIBLE support you have given us gives us so much strength! But also, we want to be able to deliver good news you understand? That It DID work and we are going to bring our bundle of joy into this world March 2013!

ALSO!!! ME AND DADDY ARE PLANNING A WEDDING!!!!! It is set for Sept 2013. I am sooooo happy! She is my everything and I could not imagine anything or anyone else in this world to spend the REST of my life with! I want to marry her!!! ASAP! So once this baby gets to cookin' we are going to start the wedding plans! I already have so much in mind! Daddy says shes just invited! LMAO! I adore that woman!!

BABY DUST!

-NENA

Cycle Day 13: LAST INSEMINATION

Well, this is our last insemination for this month. I took an OPK this morning and it was negative which is exactly what I expected. So I ovulated last night, cycle day 12, which is sooner for me than usual. But we are really happy we managed to catch it because I originally planned to start testing today with the OPK's but I had a gut feeling to start sooner since my cycle was shorter last month. Well, we are still crossing our fingers that this is our month to conceive our angel. We both do feel really good about it, and Daddy has become a pro at this whole thing. Lol! Yesterday went very smoothly, and I am sure tonight will to. We are all set up and ready to get started.
We'll know by June 27th and I am hoping that we get AMAZING news! We made a new video explaining our entire process and how we are doing everything. Just some tips for those who are new to TTC. We hope they help! Keep us in your prayers!

Baby Dust!

-NENA

Cycle Day 12: INSEMINATION #3

Today went so smooth guys! Prenatal vitamins are being taken everyday ofcourse...and I am producing a good amount of cervical mucus. I tested about 30hrs apart and got a smiley so this time tomorrow I should have a negative opk. We are still inseminating tomorrow though just to be safe :)

My mom txt me yesterday saying on March 8, 2013 she will be a grandma to a chunky lil girl! Ahhhhh!!!! I really hope so guys! It would be amazing! And if your latino you know when your momma say something... SHE'S RIGHT! My mom has been the BFP of our family for tha last 22 years lol. So let's hope I'm up! I also had a dream last night that me daddy and our baby son fell asleep on the couch. I woke up first and told our son to wake up daddy so he smacked her lol, and she turns and started blowing on his cheek, then he did it to her, back and forth and he was cracking up!! Omg I loved it!! And when I got off them I said bye ill miss youuuuu and he said miiissss uuuuuu!!! It made me not want to wake up!! Duh!!!

I'm really taking it as easy as I can with getting my hopes up buy it is hard. We just feel so good this time. Anyway, I guess we will know by June 27, 2012. That is when the witch is due to come back!! Fingers crossed!!

Baby Dust!

-NENA

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Cycle Day 11: OVULATION

Our Smiley! 6/10/12

TTC VLOG 6ALMOST TIME

TTC VLOG 7INSEMINATION

SO!! WE GOT OUR POSITIVE OPK!!! It really caught us by surprise because I usually get a positive OPK at CYCLE DAY 12-13, because I ovulate on CYCLE DAY 14. But I do know this time my cycle was different because it was only 26 days long...and I got my period early. I expected some changes but it really surprised me, its funny cuz Daddy actually saw it, not me lol. I did the test then just hopped in the shower and she usually sits and talks to me, and all I hear is "BABY YOUR OVULATING SOON!" I was so shocked! We are really happy though! We cannot wait until we get a BIG FAT POSITIVE!

We spent the day with my little brother at our town fair and had a really good time. He's my everything! And also my family came over our house today with my baby cousin who I have not been able to meet because of terrible timing! But he is 6 months and I fell in love!!! Ahhh!!! We just cannot wait to have our own! Soon soon soon let's hope guys!

We also will be inseminating today at 8pm and then daddy is off to work at 11pm until 3am and I work at 7am... Boo! She will be at school while I work though, my poor baby needs to sleep! Well guys we have an updated video on our YouTube account: nenabruja89 and we will keep you posted!!

Baby Dust!

-NENA

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Cycle Day 10: FIRST INSEMINATION

WOOHOO!!!! It's been done! The INSEMINATION has been done and now I am stuck with my legs up for the next hour lol. But its worth it! I've been drinking some pomegranate and Passion fruit juice today. And things are a little different this time. Our donor is the first donor we were going to originally go with. Tots relative couldn't make it and time is of the essence so we just decided that this was best. So for the next 6 days we will be inseminating :)

We are hoping this time we do land that BIG FAT POSITIVE (BFP). But we do feel really good about it. And our friends have shown so much support also. I know Aintthat Amotha also inseminated today and Mel has had our backs also. It's incredible to have such a strong support system. I hope we all get what we want and desire. Little bundles of joy! It's kind of ironic lol I'm watching teen mom lol.

Daddy is working but she did amazing through the entire thing, and it is really hard to stay relaxed I ended up pushing the speculum out three times because I was tense. So ladies RELAX!!! But everything went very smooth. Our donor is my best friend, he's amazing and is more like a brother to me. He talked to me the entire time lol so relaxing got easier while daddy did her thing. I'm ready for tomorrow!!

Baby Dust!

-NENA

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Cycle Day 9: HECTIC!

Today has been full of EVERYTHING! LOL! I spent the morning with Daddy, we went and grabbed out OVULATION TEST, from Walmart, and then came home so she could relax before work. While she was working I went to see my little brother and ended up fixing one of my tattoos randomly, LOL! Then I went for a LOOOONNNNGGGG walk with my younger sister. We had so much to catch up on! We walked through our old neighborhood, it was really nice actually. We haven't walked those streets in a few years.

Now, we are home and Daddy is in the shower right now, getting ready for a night of cuddling. =) She makes me so damn happy its SICK! Lol... we start our inseminations tomorrow, and we are more then ready! We skyped with Boatie and Bo-Pah last night just for any last tips they mite have. Poor things were EXHAUSTED! It was past their bed times lol!

OOOOO!!! Guys we went to a fair here in our town, and it was so adorable! I loved it! We are going to go again on Sunday morning and bring my little brother too! I just liked how it was a mini version of EASTERN EXPOSITION (BIG E). We love the BIG E and cannot WAIT until September so we can go and have a BALL!!!

Well guys, its a goodnight for now! We are pooped!

Baby Dust!

-NENA

Cycle Day 8: BABY BLANKET

Guys my mom is by far the BEST! She got our baby their first baby blanket!! I love how supportive she has been, I am seriously blessed with the best mom ever! When I was born my grandmother gave me my first blanket that I still have. It's as old as I am and is all beat up with holes but I would never get rid of it! I've decided that I will hold that blanket on my belly everyday until I do get pregnant and during my pregnancy until I can wrap my angel up in it. It really caught me by surprise because I was not expecting it. I was instantly in tears at work! Smh! But it means the world to me that my mom got us our first baby item. And it is our angels first blanket like my grandma did for me! Lord is truly making my life perfect piece by piece.

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Cycle Day 7: WE GOT OUR KIT!

GUYS!!! OMG! OMG! OMG! WE GOT OUR KIT!! ANXIETY JUST KICKED IN FULL FORCE!!!
And for once it's both of us here!! Yep, that's right... Daddy is in the building! WOO-HOO!!! BTW the look of FUN TIME on Daddy's face I must say SCARED ME! She started quacking with the speculums! Lol! But hey that is my baby! I love her! So yes this Saturday we start our insems and it is so exciting! Two more days and I'll be spread eagle with Daddy playing DOCTOR! AHAHA!! Hey we gotta laugh at the whole thing cuz it is kinda funny everything we are doing to have a baby. But we ain't alone because there are other couples who have done and are doing the same thing.

I am seriously enjoying this entire blogging and vlogging that we are doing, it seriously helps get all my jitters out....Daddy has been holding it together a lot more than I have honestly, she is just taking it as what seems to be a fun science project! Lol! It's her happy/funny attitude that also keeps me sane! She just said "We are playing house, I'm a surgeon, open wide, cervix I know your thirsty!" Than that when she is done she's going to say "Boom Bitch" to my cervix! Lmao! Yes this is why she is one of a kind, and 100% mine!

Well, everyone this is it! Time is getting closer, and we cannot wait!

BABY DUST

-NENA & TOT

LGBTQ VIDEOS

Hey guys I just wanted to add some videos that we took part in, as well as friends of ours who continue to work hard within the LGBTQ Community and I respect them because of here in MA there really isn't much going on when it comes to us. So please check out these videos and subscribe to our channel as well as FEMSLIFE101!

Thanks Again Guys!

-NENA

This was behind the scenes of our photoshoot for a lesbians calendar I hope to finish up by the end of the year.

Our friends Tayja and Vanessa speak about being out and coming out! Femslife101.

Cycle Day 6: DEAD WITCH

DING DONG THE WITCH IS DEAD! WHICH OLD WITCH? THE WICKED WITCH!!! LOL!!! Hey everyone! So my period is finally OVER! LOL! This Saturday we start our inseminations and I could not be anymore excited than what I am today! Well...I think on Saturday I'll be more excited/anxious/nervous....lol but you get the idea?! Anyway, YES SHE IS GONE! And today I get to spend my day with my love because she does not work until tonight...which kinda bums me out too though because I have to sleep alone, but hey daddy gotta take care of business!

That is actually something I wanted to talk about, is what our child would call my babes. I know I am mommy, but would Tot be daddy?? Well lemme explain something, I call Tot daddy everyday....that is who she is to me, not because I think shes a nigga or trying to be a nigga...NO! She is just the stud obviously and holds a more dominant role, and I consider myself to be DADDY'S GIRL when it comes to her. So I think that when our baby hears me calling her daddy, they would become used to that as well. I know she does not have an issue with it at all, they can call her mommy as well, it is whatever my child decides to say. Now, yes of course my baby will know that we are both women, and when the time comes that will be clarified. Just wanted to get that out there!

Well everyone! This week is the week to begin and OMG!I just cannot wait! I have a very neutral attitude to it, it may work it may not, you know? it could really go either way, but the entire TTC is exciting, just being able to keep track of things and days and feelings and look back and say DAMN we went through a lot to finally get to where we are today you know? I hope this time next month I am telling you guys that I am sick to my stomach and puking and getting FAT! All caused my a lil grimlin growing inside of my belly! =)

Baby Dust

-NENA

Cycle Day 5: TRUE FEELINGS

Today seems to be dragging soooo much! I spent time with a good friend of mine, Nani and doing her sisters hair, (braids). My babes has been working ALL freaking day long. I just cant wait until she is home and I am wrapped in her arms tonite. It seriously drives me bananas... Anyway, Cycle Day 5...not much to really say today about how I am feeling, however this back pain and my legs are still super sore but hey that is life!

Guys let me be frank here, I AM TERRIFIED! I am so scared to find out that I cannot have kids... =.(
I know that stage 1 of endometriosis does not cause infertility, but...I mean I was stage 1 in 2009, what if it is more advanced now?! What if I will never get to experience what carrying a child is? feeling the kicks, and all the symptoms?!! I know there are always different options to look into BUT I want my own...you know? Just the thought of it all drives me insane. I do my best not thinking about it, however it really does kind of eat me up a little bit.

I am being very optimistic with this entire TRYING TO CONCEIVE but AHHHHHH I just cant help it!!! I want to be able to hold my lil munchkin after spending 192083746 hours in labor...LOL... And I want to give my girl her child! To love and to protect and cherish, to watch grow up into an amazing adult...and have birthdays, and graduation...just our own little family.... I have faith I really do...and please do not think I dont because I do really feel good about it this month, but sometimes...my mind wanders and I get lost in a million thoughts.

Having a support system like you guys has made my strength multiply by a thousand every single day. We receive messages EVERYDAY by INCREDIBLE subscribers and followers and fb friends... It makes this so much easier. Well maybe this is just me today, slightly...writing and venting to you guys makes this a lot better.

BABY DUST!

-NENA

ORDERED OUR KIT!!

OK! We are finally NOT slacking anymore! LOL! We just ordered out insemination kit online! I cannot wait to get this started! We ordered 3 speculums, 3 sterile cups, 3 syringes, and one catheter. With priority shipping it totaled up to $53.00 AHHHH!!! I really just cannot wait, I am being so optimistic about it this time, however still trying to maintain a good amount of strength if it does not work.

My babes in the shower right now, and then it will be our time to cuddle and watch some tv. Now, the only thing that we need is my OPK's! (Ovulation Predictors). Even thought I do know the week I ovulate, and I usually have some cramping when I ovulate, I cannot predict the exact date, so I do want to know a solid date when ovulation is so we can be sure to do the insemination on the right times.

Well, that is pretty much where we are at right now, I cannot wait for this witch to be gone and this attempt begins! And everyone who is following our journey and really being supportive is just so amazing! Everyone has been sending their blessings and watching our videos, and we could not ask for more than that!THANK YOU SO MUCH!

Well Im out for now my loves!

BABY DUST!

-NENA

Cycle Day 4: BAD TIMING

MAN! Today I had to call out of work because these cramps are INTENSE! My legs and back are so stiff and hurt so bad! =( But I managed to rest and stay in bed, now I'm waiting for Tot to get home because we have some serious LAUNDRY to get done! LOL!

I went onto INSEMINATION SUPPLIES website and I am a little worried because the supplies will take about a week to get here, and I ovulate in a week, soooo.....we have to figure out priority shipping, or hold off until July....erghhh!! I have to talk this over with Tot because overnight shipping is $40! That is a total of $98 for the entire kit + shipping...LOL! I'm sure we will figure it out though, we always do!

A part of me thinks that maybe waiting until July is smarter, but then again I am so FREAKING anxious LOL! Anyways, it is all in God's hands as we said before! As for me, I just hope for a very happy and healthy pregnancy at some point! =)

Well the wife just got home guys so I am out for now! Probably be back later venting once again!

BABY DUST!

-NENA

Cycle Day 3: ENDOMETRIOSIS

Wuts Up Everyone! So today I am on CD3 and not much to really say except ENDOMETRIOSIS IS KICKING MY BUTT! I woke up this morning stiff as a board and in tears! The cramps shot through my back and legs! But what can you do right?

Anyway now I'm at work DYING to be free so I can spend time with my family. It's ma lil brothers 9th birthday so we are going bowling! That is going to be a blast! :)

I can't wait for this witch to be gone so we can start our inseminations! We still need to get our kit lol! Slackers! But we feel so good this time around. So fingers crossed!

Baby Dust!

-NENA

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CYCLE DAY 2: STEP BY STEP

So today I am on CYCLE DAY 2. I started my evil witch yesterday! >.< and she decided to bring along some strong ENDOMETRIOSIS cramps! But I'll be alright. My love is working as we speak, and I cannot STAND not having her here with me!!! I am such a baby! =) Anyway, according to my calendar my fertile period this month is JUNE 10-15. So within those days I should be ovulating! Those are the days we will be doing our inseminations, 3x with syringes, and 3x with a catheter going as close to the cervix as we can. We still have to order our supplies online! O man! But we have FAITH that this is our time! =) GOD is GOOD! At this point I am DREADING the idea of the 2 WEEK WAIT after ovulation, but I am determined not to take ANY pregnancy test this time until the day my period is due, which will be JUNE 27. Let's hope it'll turn out positive!!! And if not, that just means JULY! LOL! But we do think it will work this time around! I have been taking PRENATAL VITAMINS since MAY, just a walgreens brand so that is also a good thing!

We have to give a shout-out to BO-PAH AND BOATIE, who also went through this TTC Journey and now have a gorgeous baby boy along with there oldest son! They truly did inspire us! LOVE U GUYS!!

Now, for those who are wondering EXACTLY how we are doing this....GOOGLE IT! LMAO! No No! Just kidding! Well my babes is going to me the INSERTANATOR lol...after our donor does his thing into a STERILE cup, she attaches the CATHETER onto the SYRINGE and sucks up the sperm. Then with a SPECULUM and FLASHLIGHT, she will insert the CATHETER into my....ummm...you guys know...lol...and bring it as close to the CERVIX as she can, then slowly push the sperm out.

Now, we are using a SPERM-FRIENDLY lubricant called PRE-SEED which is said to mimic CERVICAL MUCUS, and does not harm sperm. After that, I am lying on my back with my hips elevated with a pillow, and legs up for 30min to an hour. Also, research does say to try to orgasm after so the cervix can open up slightly and the swimmers can start treading!

But, yes this is how its going down guys! Lol! Let's keep those fingers crossed!!!

-NENA

YOUTUBE VLOGS: nenabruja89

 HERE ARE OUR VLOGS!

VLOG #1: INTRODUCTION     

VLOG #2: INSEMINATION KIT

VLOG #3: GIRLFRIEND TAG   

VLOG #4: OVULATION!           

VLOG #5: UPDATE!                   

WELCOME!

WELCOME TO OUR NEW BLOG!

First we would like to say THANK YOU to EVERYONE who is supporting us as we begin our journey of TTC (Trying To Conceive). It truly does mean a lot to us to have such a strong support group and good friends to be able to fall back on for advice and just a good laugh! So again, THANK YOU!

Now, if you follow or TTC VLOG on YouTube http://www.youtube.com/user/nenabruja89?feature=mhee
Then, you are aware that we tried to do at home insemination the month of May/2012 and it did not work. So we are trying again this month, June/2012.

A little about us, I am NENA also knows as STEPH, and my girlfriend is TOT. We will both we posting on here on a regular basis, keeping everyone updated. We have been together for over 2yrs. Our anniversary is OCTOBER 20, 2009, which we usually write like this [10TWENTY2K9]! TOT came up with that =)
I (NENA) am 22 years old, approaching 23 on 8/14, and TOT is 21 and turns 22 on 12/22.

We are dancers, and use that as an outlet, on our YouTube channel there are a few videos of our performances with other friends of ours. =) We live in our own apartment with a spare bedroom waiting for our bundle of joy! Both have good jobs, and TOT is currently enrolled in school to become a PERSONAL FITNESS TRAINER! Which I will need after I have a baby! LOL! As for me, I graduated with a degree in HUMAN SERVICES and plan on going back for SOCIAL WORK.

Our donor is a known donor, who is a relative of TOT, since I will be carrying the baby, we would like a genetic relation between the baby and TOT.

Now, we know a lot of people do not agree or understand that but we are very satisfied with our donor and also, GOD FORBID our child may ever need anything like blood, etc. we can BOTH be tested and be there for our angel! So that is for anyone who does not agree!

Also, I do have STAGE 1 ENDOMETRIOSIS, which is a scary thing. But, i have had my tubes checked and they are in perfect condition for the egg cells to pass through. As well as have had the scar tissue removed from around my uterus! ;-)

Baby Dust to anyone who is in our shoes that is also trying to have a baby! Thank You for joining us on our journey!

-NENA

                                             This is a video I made for ma love a while back!