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I was asked to join a campaing on BzzAgent.com for Glade Expressions. I was sent a BzzKit containing my coupons for the Expressions Kit where I could grab the mist and oil free of charge. Finding the kit was difficult because everywhere I went was sold out!!! But we lucked out at our fourth stop, TARGET!! I picked up the fuji apple and cardamom spice kit, and it smells INCREDIBLE!!! If you have seen our video where I give you a quick tour of our apartment, you can see its not that big, but the Glade Expressions fills up the entire place, and it lasts for so long!! I love coming home and being SMACKED with the GREAT SMELLING STUFF!!! =) Great Job Glade!! I shared some coupons with family and friends, but I kept a lot of them because I plan on stocking up!! I want to try all the scents!!! Lol!!!

Here We Are!

Guys we have gone thru HELL!! Our pregnancy turned out to be an ectopic pregnancy meaning the baby esa growing outside my uterus in my tube. I received medical treatment to end the pregnancy on July 23, 2012 and as of August 27, 2012 I was no longer pregnant. I was three months pregnant. :.(
My emotions have been a complete mess. I celebrated my birthday on 8/14 and tried to just let go of everything I could. We are slowly gettin better. Tot has been my rock and I cannot be anymore grateful for her. I spent so much time in tears that it feels like such a blessing to have her put a smile on my face. We aren't jumping rite back into TTC just because the doctor recommends we wait 6 weeks and let my body get back to normal. I started my first period after the pregnancy on 9/7 and it hasn't really been painful but jus super heavy. Tot and I will both be starting second jobs soon so our time togetha is so precious. Our 3 year anniversary is knocking on the door 10/20 and we plan on goin to NY :-) So right now its about falling in love all over again before we continue this journey. We will still be makin our updates and sharing our life wit whoever wants to be a part of our world. Thanks for all your support.  

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Where Have We Been?

Well everyone... Things have been intense for us. On July 15, 2012 we found out I was pregnant. However the doctor is certain its an unhealthy pregnancy because my levels are low, and not doubling... They are barely rising. I had a shot of Methotrexate on July 23, 2012 however it didn't drop my levels the way it should've. So on August 9, 2012 I had an Endo Biopsy done to test the tissues so the doctor can tell if the baby is in my uterus or not. Our baby cannot survive this, unfortunately because it is a health risk for us both. On Monday, August 13, 2012 I should have the results. I have been bleeding irregularly and if it continues I will need surgery to attempt fetus removal, however since the baby is tiny, chances of surgically finding it are very minimal. So please just pray for us.

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WELL.....HERE'S THE NEWS 15 DPO

Well, the evil witch has made her appearance guys. Im not pregnant, she came two days early this month. BOOOOO!!! I was super upset and discouraged because I seriously feel like I may not be able to have kids! BUT! IM BETTER!!! So after I spoke to my mom and told her how I was feeling she really made me feel a lot better and I know that it will happen, and it is all in time =)
I am going to see my doctor and have them check out my sickness and see if I should be on any medications to make this easier. So yes we are taking a TTC break BUT we will continue to update on our changes and especially on what the doctors say. So we hope to keep our followers, and supporters because you guys truly make this that much easier on both of us. Daddy and I are hurt, but we going to make the best out of our summer just loving each other and making it a super memorable one. We are still planning our wedding and it is very exciting. We are okay because we have one another to lean on. God knows what he's doing and I have full faith in him. =)

Thank You Everyone!

-NENA

Cycle Day 23: 11 DPO

Hey everyone. Yesterday I was feeling a little crampy when I woke up and my boobs are seriously getting worse. I've also been slightly nauseous at times, just kind of feeling my food come back up. Aside from that...Oh and tired...but that is about it. I forgot to mention I've cried the last three days lol. Anyway, so me and daddy decided why not take a test today. Now its Friday and my period isn't due until Wednesday, so I am testing kind of early, but hey. I am kind of confused considering my period usually comes 14 dpo which would be Monday, and Wednesday is 16 dpo. But I also ovulated early and all that mess. So Idk! Well I took a clearblue digital and it said "Not Pregnant" -.- it could be because its still early, or it could be just that I'm not pregnant. Idk! I will wait now to see if my period shows up. I am kind of bummed but at the same time it is all in Gods hands and he knows what he's doing.
I have thought about it though, and if this cycle doesn't work I think we should hold off for another month. Just because its stressful and the anxiety that comes with TTC is serious. Also it would give me the chance to get checked up with my doctor and discuss my Endometriosis. Well everyone ttyl.
Baby Dust!

-NENA

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Cycle Day 21: 9 DPO

Hey everyone! Well, yesterday was a long day! It was my first day off from work, and I spent the day catering to Daddy, which I love doing! Made her what she asked for dinner, rubbed her down, let her relax and watch tv. It was just about her. We fell asleep for 3 hours and when I woke up I felt like I was going to PUKE!! We woke up around 8pm, and I was back to sleep at 10pm until 7am this morning, and again, felt like I was going to PUKE! Today was HOT AS HELL!!! We took a trip to the beach with family, than came home and I cooked dinner, now daddy is working =(
All day my boobs have been KILLING me!!!! My nipples hurt so BAD!! Also, I been nauseous throughout the day, and it is driving me CRAZY! It's like my food keeps coming up and just never settles! I cannot take it! I am still short of breath, and I had a headache today but I think it was from my ponytail, not really relating it to any symptoms. Still super duper bloated and gassy, that just refuses to STOP! LOL! Hey if it leads to a baby then I'll take it ALL! ;-) Well that's all for now!

Baby Dust!

-NENA

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Cycle Day 20: 8 DPO

Hey guys! Sorry about not updating last night but I was DRAINED!!! I came home from work and cooked dinner and was beyond exhausted after my shower! Well where to start....yesterday I woke up gassy again, and didn't really have too much nausea, but I did end up really fatigued around 3pm at work. I was sitting down with a patient and out of nowhere I started to feel super winded. It could just be me being tired for working long hours four days in a row, or a symptom. Also, I haven't had a bowel movement since Sunday, and today is Tuesday. That isn't really normal for me to skip a day, and when I did go on Sunday...it took some effort, which also never happens. I know I know TMI!! LOL!! TOO BAD!! But I ate some cereal in hopes to get things going because I am lactose intolerant. My breast are tender to the touch. When I take off my bra they feel super heavy. >.< Daddy said she noticed I had sensitive smell a few days ago, which I did not pick up on, and I still really can't say I do or don't. Lol...I am still bloated more than I was. My stomach is kind of hard also, but maybe because of not using the bathroom over 36hrs. I still have a lot of Cervical Mucus, and that is definitely new for me. After Ovulation I have some CM but not in the amounts I've had in the past two days.
My anxiety is starting to kick in but not too bad considering I am already 8 DPO. Last month I think I was testing already at this time Lol. OH! Also, I've been having some twinges of pain here and there on my ovaries as well as what seems like a stomach ache. But it could be anything. I mean I am truly hoping that it worked out this time, and we will have a healthy lil baby in March. But still too early to test. Just keep us in your prayers!

Baby Dust!

-NENA

Cycle Day 18: 6 DPO

Hey everyone! So I'm back and ofcourse Daddy is working. I just got off work and I am EXHAUSTED! Daddy had a Drag King Show she was hired to do, so we didn't get home until after two. And then she cut me some cantaloupe and papaya so we didn't actually sleep until three. Lol! Anyways! Update on how I feel???! Well...I'm still bloated, and the acne on my chin is getting serious! I never break out only when my period is about a day away and it one pimple, not 3-4!! Also, a lot of CM (Cervical Mucus) today! I know I know TMI but hey. My breast feel heavy, and when touched they are super sensitive. I'm still having some gas but not as bad as yesterday. I mean everything sounds promising but we still can't jump to conclusions you know. We have another 10 days to wait before I test or my period comes. Well guys this one is short because I'm drained and want to sleep! Lol! Love ya!!
Baby Dust

-NENA

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Cycle Day 17: SYMPTOMS?!

Hey everyone!! So sorry for not updating last night. Daddy and I had a hectic day!! We wanted to basically just make the day just about us so we did just tht. She took me out to dinner at 99 Restaurant, and it was delicious!! Then I dragged her to "The 99" which is basically based on the 99 teens that die everyday due to addiction, drinking and driving, suicide, violence, etc. Its a huge tent divided into different rooms and each room is a different type of teen death and it was super graphic and intense. One room that scared the hell out of me was HELL! Yes they had a room disguised as HELL!! It was exactly what daddy and I pictured. Then the next room showed a scene from Passion of the Christ and had an actor act the Crucifixion out after. It ended with a short film about a man sacrificing his little sons life to save a train of people full of sins. It broke my heart to watch. But it was an outlook on what God did for us. We then got to meet with someone and talk about our experience and say a prayer. It was super inspiring!
Ok enough of that! So yesterday I spend a lot of the day feeling nauseas. I took it as aftermath of having eaten a poptart with my lunch around 12. But it was throughout my day soooooo Idk. I was also bloated as HELL and still am! I've had gas since yesterday which is painful! I mean can these be symptoms?! Yes of course but I do not want to get ahead of myself. Daddy and I haven't been too caught up with things this time. Huts yesterday I almost ordered and alcoholic beverage because we really have forgot about it. It's easier to deal with the anxiety that way. Well im at work right now so I gotta go. I'll post up pictures tonite of how bloated I am, and our tickets from "The 99".
Baby Dust!

-NENA

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Cycle Day 15: 3 DPO

So our day was very nice. Aside from me being bloated anti having gas for the past two days lol. TMI! We spent the day together watching movies and cuddling. Daddy really is my best friend. It's still too early to think of anything as possible SYMPTOMS and this time around I am actually really relaxed during the 2ww. Maybe I will get more anxious as it gets closer to finding out, but as of today we are both relatively calm. Which is really good because last month we were both a wreck. I mean I know we are both scared of being disappointed but we feel very optimistic. I pray every nite and hope that we are blessed.
So wedding talk... My sister who is also my maid of honor has really been on top of things. She's looking at venues and dresses, it keeps me more relaxed as well. We are going to go see some dresses next week so that should be fun. I have a very solid idea of what I want so it should go smoothly.
Another thing me and daddy discussed today is how long we should wait until we start house hunting. Our apartment is a two bedroom but is pretty small, so a toddler wouldn't really have space to run around even though we have space outside. I'm thinking after I pay off my car is best because I wouldn't want to have a car payment and mortgage....I would not feel secure enough. However we are going to keep an eye on the market and I think between now and then we will have a solid idea of what we are looking for and where is best.
Well its past my bedtime now and I work the next 4 days straight 7a-7p so ill post again tomorrow. Goodnight everyone!
Baby Dust!
-NENA

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Cycle Day 14: Start Our 2WW

So it has officially begun... the TERRIBLE, ANNOYING, ANXIOUS, EVIL 2 WEEK WAIT!!!! Last month I was going freaking KRAZY!! I felt so many symptoms but I guess I got ahead of myself. So this month we only have one pregnancy test left and I refuse to take it until my period is due June 27. SHE BETTER NOT COME!!! EVIL HOME-WRECKER!! Guys I am terrified of being disappointed again, last months really broke my heart. But I feel too secure this month, it almost feels too good to be true you know?! I hope that we do get pregnant and have a very AMAZING AND HEALTHY PREGNANCY and a very HAPPY AND HEALTHY BABY!! AHHHHH!!!! Everyone has been great on YouTube and on Facebook, and for those of you who follow our Blog! All the INCREDIBLE support you have given us gives us so much strength! But also, we want to be able to deliver good news you understand? That It DID work and we are going to bring our bundle of joy into this world March 2013!

ALSO!!! ME AND DADDY ARE PLANNING A WEDDING!!!!! It is set for Sept 2013. I am sooooo happy! She is my everything and I could not imagine anything or anyone else in this world to spend the REST of my life with! I want to marry her!!! ASAP! So once this baby gets to cookin' we are going to start the wedding plans! I already have so much in mind! Daddy says shes just invited! LMAO! I adore that woman!!

BABY DUST!

-NENA

Cycle Day 13: LAST INSEMINATION

Well, this is our last insemination for this month. I took an OPK this morning and it was negative which is exactly what I expected. So I ovulated last night, cycle day 12, which is sooner for me than usual. But we are really happy we managed to catch it because I originally planned to start testing today with the OPK's but I had a gut feeling to start sooner since my cycle was shorter last month. Well, we are still crossing our fingers that this is our month to conceive our angel. We both do feel really good about it, and Daddy has become a pro at this whole thing. Lol! Yesterday went very smoothly, and I am sure tonight will to. We are all set up and ready to get started.
We'll know by June 27th and I am hoping that we get AMAZING news! We made a new video explaining our entire process and how we are doing everything. Just some tips for those who are new to TTC. We hope they help! Keep us in your prayers!

Baby Dust!

-NENA

Cycle Day 12: INSEMINATION #3

Today went so smooth guys! Prenatal vitamins are being taken everyday ofcourse...and I am producing a good amount of cervical mucus. I tested about 30hrs apart and got a smiley so this time tomorrow I should have a negative opk. We are still inseminating tomorrow though just to be safe :)

My mom txt me yesterday saying on March 8, 2013 she will be a grandma to a chunky lil girl! Ahhhhh!!!! I really hope so guys! It would be amazing! And if your latino you know when your momma say something... SHE'S RIGHT! My mom has been the BFP of our family for tha last 22 years lol. So let's hope I'm up! I also had a dream last night that me daddy and our baby son fell asleep on the couch. I woke up first and told our son to wake up daddy so he smacked her lol, and she turns and started blowing on his cheek, then he did it to her, back and forth and he was cracking up!! Omg I loved it!! And when I got off them I said bye ill miss youuuuu and he said miiissss uuuuuu!!! It made me not want to wake up!! Duh!!!

I'm really taking it as easy as I can with getting my hopes up buy it is hard. We just feel so good this time. Anyway, I guess we will know by June 27, 2012. That is when the witch is due to come back!! Fingers crossed!!

Baby Dust!

-NENA

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Cycle Day 11: OVULATION

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SO!! WE GOT OUR POSITIVE OPK!!! It really caught us by surprise because I usually get a positive OPK at CYCLE DAY 12-13, because I ovulate on CYCLE DAY 14. But I do know this time my cycle was different because it was only 26 days long...and I got my period early. I expected some changes but it really surprised me, its funny cuz Daddy actually saw it, not me lol. I did the test then just hopped in the shower and she usually sits and talks to me, and all I hear is "BABY YOUR OVULATING SOON!" I was so shocked! We are really happy though! We cannot wait until we get a BIG FAT POSITIVE!

We spent the day with my little brother at our town fair and had a really good time. He's my everything! And also my family came over our house today with my baby cousin who I have not been able to meet because of terrible timing! But he is 6 months and I fell in love!!! Ahhh!!! We just cannot wait to have our own! Soon soon soon let's hope guys!

We also will be inseminating today at 8pm and then daddy is off to work at 11pm until 3am and I work at 7am... Boo! She will be at school while I work though, my poor baby needs to sleep! Well guys we have an updated video on our YouTube account: nenabruja89 and we will keep you posted!!

Baby Dust!

-NENA

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Cycle Day 10: FIRST INSEMINATION

WOOHOO!!!! It's been done! The INSEMINATION has been done and now I am stuck with my legs up for the next hour lol. But its worth it! I've been drinking some pomegranate and Passion fruit juice today. And things are a little different this time. Our donor is the first donor we were going to originally go with. Tots relative couldn't make it and time is of the essence so we just decided that this was best. So for the next 6 days we will be inseminating :)

We are hoping this time we do land that BIG FAT POSITIVE (BFP). But we do feel really good about it. And our friends have shown so much support also. I know Aintthat Amotha also inseminated today and Mel has had our backs also. It's incredible to have such a strong support system. I hope we all get what we want and desire. Little bundles of joy! It's kind of ironic lol I'm watching teen mom lol.

Daddy is working but she did amazing through the entire thing, and it is really hard to stay relaxed I ended up pushing the speculum out three times because I was tense. So ladies RELAX!!! But everything went very smooth. Our donor is my best friend, he's amazing and is more like a brother to me. He talked to me the entire time lol so relaxing got easier while daddy did her thing. I'm ready for tomorrow!!

Baby Dust!

-NENA

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Cycle Day 9: HECTIC!

Today has been full of EVERYTHING! LOL! I spent the morning with Daddy, we went and grabbed out OVULATION TEST, from Walmart, and then came home so she could relax before work. While she was working I went to see my little brother and ended up fixing one of my tattoos randomly, LOL! Then I went for a LOOOONNNNGGGG walk with my younger sister. We had so much to catch up on! We walked through our old neighborhood, it was really nice actually. We haven't walked those streets in a few years.

Now, we are home and Daddy is in the shower right now, getting ready for a night of cuddling. =) She makes me so damn happy its SICK! Lol... we start our inseminations tomorrow, and we are more then ready! We skyped with Boatie and Bo-Pah last night just for any last tips they mite have. Poor things were EXHAUSTED! It was past their bed times lol!

OOOOO!!! Guys we went to a fair here in our town, and it was so adorable! I loved it! We are going to go again on Sunday morning and bring my little brother too! I just liked how it was a mini version of EASTERN EXPOSITION (BIG E). We love the BIG E and cannot WAIT until September so we can go and have a BALL!!!

Well guys, its a goodnight for now! We are pooped!

Baby Dust!

-NENA

Cycle Day 8: BABY BLANKET

Guys my mom is by far the BEST! She got our baby their first baby blanket!! I love how supportive she has been, I am seriously blessed with the best mom ever! When I was born my grandmother gave me my first blanket that I still have. It's as old as I am and is all beat up with holes but I would never get rid of it! I've decided that I will hold that blanket on my belly everyday until I do get pregnant and during my pregnancy until I can wrap my angel up in it. It really caught me by surprise because I was not expecting it. I was instantly in tears at work! Smh! But it means the world to me that my mom got us our first baby item. And it is our angels first blanket like my grandma did for me! Lord is truly making my life perfect piece by piece.

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Cycle Day 7: WE GOT OUR KIT!

GUYS!!! OMG! OMG! OMG! WE GOT OUR KIT!! ANXIETY JUST KICKED IN FULL FORCE!!!
And for once it's both of us here!! Yep, that's right... Daddy is in the building! WOO-HOO!!! BTW the look of FUN TIME on Daddy's face I must say SCARED ME! She started quacking with the speculums! Lol! But hey that is my baby! I love her! So yes this Saturday we start our insems and it is so exciting! Two more days and I'll be spread eagle with Daddy playing DOCTOR! AHAHA!! Hey we gotta laugh at the whole thing cuz it is kinda funny everything we are doing to have a baby. But we ain't alone because there are other couples who have done and are doing the same thing.

I am seriously enjoying this entire blogging and vlogging that we are doing, it seriously helps get all my jitters out....Daddy has been holding it together a lot more than I have honestly, she is just taking it as what seems to be a fun science project! Lol! It's her happy/funny attitude that also keeps me sane! She just said "We are playing house, I'm a surgeon, open wide, cervix I know your thirsty!" Than that when she is done she's going to say "Boom Bitch" to my cervix! Lmao! Yes this is why she is one of a kind, and 100% mine!

Well, everyone this is it! Time is getting closer, and we cannot wait!

BABY DUST

-NENA & TOT

LGBTQ VIDEOS

Hey guys I just wanted to add some videos that we took part in, as well as friends of ours who continue to work hard within the LGBTQ Community and I respect them because of here in MA there really isn't much going on when it comes to us. So please check out these videos and subscribe to our channel as well as FEMSLIFE101!

Thanks Again Guys!

-NENA

This was behind the scenes of our photoshoot for a lesbians calendar I hope to finish up by the end of the year.

Our friends Tayja and Vanessa speak about being out and coming out! Femslife101.